23 Jan
Heartbreak
So my ribcage is hinged now, like a huge pair of jaws. It yawns wide, and there’s this chasm, a throat, where I normally expect my heart to thrum. Then it snaps shut in a low growl without warning, crushing my lungs, chuckling at the idea that humans need air. Either way my chest aches. Either way I’m powerless against the grinning beast. It has no tongue. It’s all teeth. Like a heartbreak with no explanation. Exactly like that.
I am all searing thorax. The rest of me is numb.
I’m so sorry. I wish you a speedy and thorough return to happiness.
I’m not sure that I understand. I’m certain that I don’t.
But you sound like your pain is more than just physical.
Pain like that can wound a person’s spirit. Take care to remember that life will be without pain again.
I hope you feel better soon…you are thoroughly missed.
*hug* You are loved. I see it in the faces of those around you, and feel it in myself. I often wish I could find a way through the reserve, the fear of exposing your need and pain, to the woman inside. . . .Because I cant give her the support and acceptance she needs from outside the castle gates. . . .
I’m so sorry to hear it. It hurts and hurts and eventually hurts less, but this part is so hard.
Hugs hugs hugs, my friend…
I was thinking of you the other day. I’ve had a suspicion that seems to be supported by your comments and Katie’s. If I’m right, I’m so sorry!